Question: So, it is a conditioning to look for a happy ending?
Karl Renz: Whatever looks for a happy ending, it is imagining that he has a beginning. And whatever is imagining to have a beginning for sure by loving himself or whatever, by that loving-caring business of a lover caring about himself trying to make a happy end out of it.
So, in this instant you become something, you are something what has a beginning, like the body has a beginning, the soul has a beginning and end, or whatever. Even imagining that you exist, you doubt that existence. You are looking for the beginning because you want to control yourself. No way out.
Then you are very busy. Of course, in that loving-caring business you only want to have best for yourself. The best guru, the best understanding, the best inner vision or outer vision. Only the best is good enough for what you are. Not less. Only the best. I don’t go for less. That is called love. What else. But the best cannot be found, thanks God.
So, you will never be satisfied by second best. Second best is awareness. It’s not bad. But it’s only second best. And satisfaction is not in second best. The satisfaction is only in that what is goodness itself. So, second best is not good enough. Only goodness itself is good enough for you to be.
And even every other, what is so called experience of so clarity, and energetic, and everything is clear, and all that – is all second best. If it all. And never good enough.
And in an instant you see – it will never be good enough, and suddenly you are the goodness itself. Which is only that to be what is that is good enough for you. And there is satisfaction which is never depending on any so called understanding of any kind of sensational – block of existence or manifest, or not-manifest, and all of that what you can imagine. Fuck it all in that instant.
Yeah, it’s true. It’s really like – pufff, so what?