Karl Renz: It’s a total demand of Totality. And you cannot resist.
Question: That’s nice.
Karl Renz: Yeah. That’s the way it is. It’s peace. It’s always the total demand of Totality, that the next moment has to be as the next moment already is. And whatever gives you the energy which can lift your eyelid – it’s the same energy who is make the world turn. So there is no separation in it. It’s just Totality living itself in all these differences. And there is no one who is drawn to something. It’s just moment by moment Life living itself in that way.
And that’s there is actually, maybe if you are honest, no place of judgement, judging it. Just as it is. Or already is. And because of that, this has to be whatever. The movie is shot and nothing has to be and can be changed in it. So just you can relax totally, absolute relax and just be witness of your own movie which is already finished.
And it will never stop. Frame by frame. You are framed by yourself. So even to take it personal that one thinks – I am now drawn and my tendency, what get I… – is part of it. Just like – ok. But finally it’s just Totality living itself. And always total responsible for everything. But there is no one else who is responsible. Then Life is responsible in any way, how is the way it’s living itself. And it doesn’t mind. So there was never any mind, never any time. Nothing to worry about. But still the worries come. But where is the worrier? Show me the worrier.
So one of the English book called “Worry and be happy”. Because not to worry – that is really… I am too lazy not to worry. Because worries happen by themself. Try not to worry. Then you are in trouble. So the way what you are, the happiness you are is not depending on how this movie is played. What happens or not happens. And the happiness who is depending on the way it is played, or the circumstances, is not happiness. It’s just maybe more or less whatever unpleasant.
But happiness cannot be experienced. And it’s never in this “here and now”. No. You always look at the wrong place. But you cannot stop looking. It’s crazy. So you have to enjoy yourself by not finding yourself. So the joy of not finding joy. It’s permanent. The joy you can find is impermanent. It’s coming and going. Fleeting. But the joy of not finding joy is uninterrupted. Just a pointer. But just try it.